No Competition

I'm eager to play games with you

Nothing intense, no injuries involved

Something fun and simple

Maybe 'Uno' or 'Twister'

Yet these things you do not seem to understand

How do I explain? How do I teach?

When all you've ever been used to is 'fencing'

Fencing with one who left you

Left you with scars that refuse to heal

Left you with indelible marks

Indelible marks that I cannot compete with

That I will not compete with

I will not compete
You refuse to be taught
You refuse to be fixed
You remain 'en garde'

So I will not compete
Not with you
Not with your ghosts
Not with the one who haunts you

I will not
Compete

~ For  L.A.
Need i say more. Not everything has to be a competition, not everything has to be work.

"And so it goes, the soldier knows, the battle with the heart isn't easily won... but it can be won" Ingrid Michaelson

I dream of us

I dream about us

All the time I dream about us

Not because I do not have other dreams

Not because I have nothing to aspire to

And I know you must have a 1000 things

A 1000 things that keep you up at night

But I can only wish I am one of them

And I know you have your own dreams

Just like I have mine

But oh how I wish

You could find a crevice 

Somewhere in the middle of all that mess

To fit the dream .. of me and you

I dream about us

All the time I dream about us

I wish you did too

For 'some girl' -- of Tomfoolery and so forth. lmao

Some Girl - " Hmm, that guy he doesn't think about me oh. Me, I've stopped thinking about him oh"

Shels - " lol..why did u even start thinking about him in the first place. he's a waste of space, isn't that what they called the GH goalkeeper?... chale get with lil Wayne's master plan meynn..money on my mind" hehe

Basic point, not rocket science --> If someone doesn't think about you, thinking about them will just make you sad... and its no good wishing they will include you to their plans, if they wanted you, you'd already be a part of their plan for the future, ya dig? You can't force yourself into someone's dreams oh. It either they want you or they don't. There noorrrrr u for settle..and forget it, no long tin.

Used To Be Love Drunk

Back then I was love drunk

When everything was fuzzy

And I couldn't think straight

Back when I was drunk on her

Drunk on us

Everything looked so appealing

Her face, her soul, her being

Heightened emotions, overwhelming feelings

I was high on her, and her alone

But it all wore off eventually

Eventually when I crashed

And boy, did I crash ...

Back then I was love drunk

But now I'm hangover

Goodbyes

She had never liked saying Goodbyes

Preferred saying See-You-Later

She would do anything to avoid saying adios

But now all she does is regret not saying it

A warning

A sign

That would have been nice

To say farewell

To hug you tightly

And rub your belly

Just one last time

To come to terms

With the 'inevitable?'

Just one last time

To bust a few jokes

To laugh out loud

Just one last time

To say Farewell

Fare thee well

But the hands of time, she cannot turn

So she whispers a little prayer

She hopes he gets her message

She still loves him and misses him

.. in a single word

Addictions : Give you a high but after the high is an incredible low, and then the PAIN sets in

Pain : Sometimes letting go of what causes the pain is more painful than the pain itself, like a WOUND

Wounds : Old wounds die hard, surprisingly, but with the right medicine, they can HEAL faster

Heal : Time, gentleness, sometimes space, they say time heals all wounds.

Wounds : Old wounds leave scars. Because we see the scars, the wounds are hard to FORGET

Forget : They say its easier to forgive than to forget, but if you have not forgotten, did you forgive?

Forgiveness : Easier said than done. All we can hope is one day we forget, and forgive .. and grow

Grow : Read your Bible, Pray everyday if you want to grooooowwww!!! haha (hope you guys remember that song from Sunday school)

What you should know.. about what you don't know

How many times have you heard the phrase..

'What you dunno, won't hurt you'?

I personally think its a load of crap

I think its always good to be in-the-know

People tend to keep you in the dark

Possibly to make themselves look good

Or whatever clandestine reasons they may have

And usually they keep those secrets for a reason

Possibly because if you knew ...

Well, you might look at things differently..

.. At them differently ..

And so they omit, they omit quite a lot

And pretend, pretend quite a lot

And leave you in the dark

Out of the circle, out of the loop

But once you come across the truth

You seem to gain a different perspective

It throws some more light on the situation

And suddenly the half moon becomes a full moon

You see things oh-so-clearly

Most importantly, you know where you stand

And then you know how carefully to tread

And what your next step should be ..

They say 'What you dunno, won't hurt you'?

Well the Good Book says..

'The truth shall set you free'!!

                                       ~ Shels

~ Recently I had a discussion with one of my closest friends about the phrase 'what you don't know won't hurt you'.. and well, I don't agree. I dunno about you, but i always want to be in the know, i believe the more you know-->the more information you have--> then you can make well informed decisions. its not rocket science.
LOL, but i guess that not what the person who came up with the phrase was thinking, they were pro'ly thinking...well, if you don't know then you avoid the pain/hurt that knowing about that information might bring. But yeah chale, what you dunno can hurt you because you dun want to be the blind person living in darkness and making decisions on half-ass info. Just my sentiments. toodles boos. xoxo

T-I-M-E

They say time waits for no man

Well neither do I

They say time heals all wounds

Really?

He hurt her

He hurt her really badly

And didn't even have the decent courtesy

To offer an apology

Oh wait, actually he did

In a note, on her work desk

And oh did she pine for him

Day and night she pined for him

Waiting for the 'I'm sorry' she never got

Waiting for the 'I love you' she never got

Waiting for the explanation

The explanation that he didn't have the balls to give

Yup, He hurt her

He hurt her really badly

They say time waits for no man

Well neither will I

They say time heals all wounds

Then this too shall pass

~ Hi there! Ok, i can't remember what inspired this anymore. I just made up the story as I wrote chale. I guess the main thing I was tryna say was that 'time waits for no one' and it pains me when people hang on to bad rubbish for a long time for whatever reason, using whatever excuse,.. 'oh, we have unfinished business', 'oh she owes me an apology', 'oh, i kno he loves me, he'll realise it', 'Oh she has some issues right now, those issues will go away, and I will still be here', 'Oh, he is my friend'...ermm--->>> BULLSHIT!! Get over it already dumbo jumbo! Time waits for no one, and with time all your wounds will heal. Plus, u shouldn't allow yourself to be used, its not a good summer look, lmao..heck its not good, period!.lol..ok, todolooooo!!!!

Open and Exposed

Your nose

Your nose

You say you're addicted to me

And I've got your nose wide open

Just one whiff of me and you're high for days

My heart

My heart

I feel exposed and vulnerable

See you've got me wide open

Open and Exposed ... And oh so terribly afraid

Your nose

My heart

Isn't there is a clear difference between..

A nose and A heart?

A day and Forever?

Unfortunately there is

So we can't do 'open'

No matter how close we think we are

So today I shut you out

For there is no future in tomorrow

     ~ Shels

Sorry, haven't written in awhile. Internet issues, plus av just been lazy, all I ever wanna do these days are eat, sleep, watch TV and party :) This was inspired by a friend. This is for her :) As I said, the thing about being 'open' is that you're also exposed and vulnerable.. so unless both parties are on the same page, you're better off opening a book or web page instead. lol. I should totally explore my options in relationship counseling, I'm not half bad, haha.