Speechless (Lady Gaga)

I can’t believe what you said to me
Last night when we were alone
You threw your hands up
Baby you gave up, you gave up

I can’t believe how you looked at me
With your James Dean glossy eyes
In your tight jeans with your long hair
And your cigarette stained lies

Could we fix you if you broke?
And is your punch line just a joke?

I’ll never talk again
Oh boy you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

I can’t believe how you slurred at me
With your half wired broken jaw
You popped my heart seams
On my bubble dreams, bubble dreamsa

I can’t believe how you looked at me
With your Johnnie Walker eyes
He’s gonna get you and after he’s through
There’s gonna be no love left to rye

And I know that it’s complicated
But I’m a loser in love
So baby raise a glass to mend
All the broken hearts
Of all my wrecked up friends

I’ll never talk again
Oh boy you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless so speechless

I’ll never love again

Oh friend you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

Hooow?
Haaaa-oooo-wow?
H-ooow?
Wow

And after all the drinks 

And bars that we’ve been to
Would you give it all up?
Could I give it all up for you?

And after all the boys

And girls that we’ve been through
Would you give it all up?
Could you give it all up?

If I promise to you boy
That I’ll never talk again
And I’ll never love again
I’ll never write a song
Won’t even sing along

I’ll never love again
So speechless
You left me speechless, so speechless
Why're you so speechless, so speechless?

Will you ever talk again?
Oh boy, why're you so speechless?
You’ve left me speechless

Some men may follow me
But you choose “death and company”
Why you so speechless? Oh oh oh

I actually like Lady Gaga. She's a little psycho, but I don't mind Psycho. As for her 'Telephone' video, hmmm.. its a little over the top for me, to say the least. Chale, what ever happened to the simple music videos with three girls doing some formation dance? lmao! I think her album isn't bad though... its just a little on the bitter side. I hope she's really not that bitter, cos that would just be sad. But yeah, this is one of her emotional tunes, one of them 'bad break up' songs... go listen. Oh, and why must she talk about death? Her ex-boyfriend is suing her too-- talk about being caught in a bad romance!

The Bed

Got more than I bargained for

I was only trying to be nice

Thinking he was only being nice

And I hesitantly gave an inch

Not realizing the hole I was digging for myself

Home boy took a mile and a half

Now it seems I have made my bed

But must I sleep in it?

Must I ?

How Do You Sleep?

I lay in bed

Counting sheep

I toss and turn

While I take a trip

Down memory lane

The laughs

The tears

Those golden moments

That took our breaths away

I toss and turn

I try to wrap my head around

How everything hit the rocks

Trying to figure you out

And why you did the things you did

Said the things you said

I toss and turn

Because sleep evades me

They say there is no pillow as soft..

.. As a clear conscience

So I lay in bed

Wondering ...

How do you sleep?

Maybe you don't..

Maybe you do

Maybe you do not own a conscience

Maybe you do

Maybe it would not have made a difference

But I'll really like to know..

How do you sleep?

~ I watch people do the things they do, and listen to some of the things people say, and I'm just confused. When I was growing up, soaps like The bold & The beautiful, The Guiding Light, Sunset Beach etc.. used to upset me after awhile, because the drama was way too much, and people could get so wicked. I didn't understand it. It really got me emotional. In general, bad people, and bad endings upset me. I sound like some kid, and that's disturbing. LOL. As if that wasn't disturbing enough, as I grew up, I realized that the script writers didn't just pull that ish out of their asses... THESE THINGS HAPPEN IN REAL LIFE!!! Eeeeeek!! SCARY, INIT?!! Clearly, I'm not very well prepped for life, because these things shock me every single time, even when I've seen it time and time again. Had a convo with a friend recently and she said 'Human beings are such disappointments, you need to learn to be emotion-less.' Yes indeed, human beings can be such monumental disappointments... and some don't think before they talk, others act first and think later, and some just don't think. People can be very selfish, and see absolutely nothing wrong with it. Remember though, that there is absolutely no point losing sleep over someone else's actions or words, no matter how badly they affect you.. because the person is probably sleeping and snoring (now that's between that person and God), or at best, really sorry for their actions (but their sorry asses can't tell you). Forgiving is easy, forgetting is almost impossible... but sleep is necessary, for everyone - with or without a conscience, ... and fortunately, or unfortunately, everyone gets what is coming at them eventually, even when they wear their metal hats. And sometimes when people do the things they do, its not because they are inherently evil.. they are also growing up, they had different agents of socialization, which have affected their thought processes. Don't hold it against them.. life is interesting, people get better everyday, people learn new things everyday, people drop bad habits everyday, people develop consciences out of nowhere, people learn from their mistakes, and their 'punishments'... and life is still a party. It may be a bitch sometimes, but its also a hardcore party! straight, no chasers. lol

~ Inspiration -- Hot tubs and huge glasses of concoctions :D

                         Someone asked me why I have insomnia, and I said I think I'm worried, but I dunno what I'm worried about.Infact, I think I'm allergic to school, cos I slept just fine when I was at home. I asked, why do you have insomnia? He said, I think my ghosts of the past are haunting me. I said, Heehhhh, kudos, you have a conscience. lmao

* Songs of the day: 'Where are you now?' by Honor Society, 'Hallelujah' rendition by Alex Burke (doesn't she just look amazing?), 'All the right moves' by One Republic. ENJOY!!

   

WALLS

"Good work today, Grey, we're a good team." - Owen
"You know what? We are not a team. Christina and I are a team ... It took a long time to make her happy, and she is finally happy, and if you mess with that, I will turn on you. That's a team!" - Meredith

I try so hard to build walls around her

Walls to separate you and her

For you are no good for her

You rip her apart and leave her bleeding

Pretending to catch her when she falls

Yet she falls with a concussion every single time

Perhaps your fingers consist of air molecules

For how else can I explain

Why you claim to reach out your hands

But somehow never manage to catch her

I try so hard to lock her up in a castle

Yet you lure her away with promises

Disillusioned, she builds castles in the air

I lock her up in a fortress, far away from you

Yet somehow she lets down her hair

And you climb up to her

You seduce her senses

You intoxicate her being

And her heart is of no use to her

As useless as an alcoholic's liver

You confuse her with your confusion

Today you want her, tomorrow you don't

Make up that mind of yours, will you?

Again you play your tune

And in a trance, she dances along

Her feet never seem to tire

I wonder why

I know it will not be long

Until your tune has no rhythm

Until your sweet potion turns sour

Until you destroy her happiness

With your dirty little secrets

And your long trail of lies

It won't be long

Before you rip her heart apart again

But this time

I'll rip yours apart as well

I'm sure you've heard the saying..

'Kharma is a bitch'

Well, I'm her flipping secretary

Yes, I'm coming right at you

And I'm going hard!

~ Hi All, A lil psycho sum'n sum'n for you. Enjoy :) 

There's a little bit of humor in there, but there are quite a few issues as well. I'm sure you all have one or two friends who are hung up on some 'good-for-nothing's. They keep getting hurt, yet they never give up (or some variation of the sort). ... And don't you just want to bitch slap the mofo when you get the chance and somehow build the thickest walls ever around your friend so that Mr/Miss 'no-good-two-shoes' will never ever be able to gain any form of access? But alas, you can only fantasize about those things, lmao, you are not trying to go to jail for whipping someone with a flipping barbed wire (heh, i'm wicked). Ya, it kinda sucks when you have to watch someone being turned into a fool, and not be able to do anything about it. Even worse, when you are single and you try to warn them they think ooh you just want someone to join you in 'singlehood'..when you are not single too, they think you are just trying to sit on their happiness. Its hard oh... ah well, what else can we do but pray for these unfortunate souls and hope that one day they learn. But here is the tough question.. do you keep reminding them that they are heading for trouble, thereby risking your friendship?.. or do you just keep quiet, hope for the best and wait with opened arms, ready to wipe away the tears when everything turns sour? Unfortunately I don't have the answers, all I can say is, don't forget them when you pray.

Inspired by Grey's Anatomy episode 'Push', some past experiences with friends, and people's random fila.  

Waking Up With Fleas

Its my business, our business

Things said and done in private

I was your dirty little secret

And you, mine 

But ofcourse nothing ever stays private

And one must not expect it to

An ear or two would have been fine

Not everybody and their flipping mother

Now I walk around

Knowing that everyone knows my business

Yet they smile at me, and act ignorant

Once I turn around, they are quick to judge and laugh

And ofcourse these idiots forget

That no matter how thin you slice it

There are always two sides to a story

And that they only know one side

I guess someone should have reminded me

That when you lie down with dogs

You wake up with fleas

Irritating fleas that bug you until you kill them

And fleas make you itch

You see? You can hide an act

But you still have to live with the consequences

Consequences that everyone might know about

~ LOL. ok for real its not funny.. but it seems some people (1), cannot keep secrets. (2) distort stories to make themselves feel good. (3) Chat shit about other people and don't even have the balls to say it to the person involved. (4) Talk with their asses, instead of using their brains.. what i call verbal diarrhoea. (5) Have very short memories.. if only they would take a trip down memory lane, a detailed one.. maybe they would realize that they have absolutely no right to say shit. (6) People keep talking and laughing, and totally forget to say the words they should actually be saying 'You no force'.. all for what? small fila? shits and giggles? oh come on! put yourself in the other persons shoes!

OK, so this was inspired by some fila my friend gave me... you know how i love fila! I mean, i can't give details about somebody else's fila, but you can infer.  It just sucks when you diehhh you think you've done something in hiding kraa, not knowing that the other person has gone to tell everybody and their mama, and has even added salt and pepper to it chale..n now they even have inside jokes about you. Quite funny... but actually very very sad. .. But an interesting twist of Kharma -- after chatting shit about you, two months later homegirl comes to tell you that she's pregnant, and its yours. Now she's mad as hell... is it bcos its urs, or bcos she has finished spoiling your name so she cant be having your baby. lmao

PHOTO DISCLAIMER: I have nothing against kissing dogs.

Hold Yuh

.... Do you wanna gyal who go tek you away?
Me want a gyal who cyan wine pon me
Wid it gooddd
And mek mi feel itt
Show me that you could, girll

Gyal, me wann fi hold yuhhh
put me arms right arounddd ya
Gyal you give me the tightest grip me eva git inna my life ....

(Hold Yuh -  by Gyptian)

You've got a hold on me
Its magnetic
Like glue, I'm stuck on you
Like warm scented massage oil
You're spread all over me
And penetrate into my pores


You've got a hold on me
I can't quite put my finger on it
But you've got me all hot and bothered
Hot is what you make me
Bothered is what I am when I can't hold you
You've penetrated into my being


You've got a hold on me
Its a firm tight grip
Its a smooth slow rhythm
Unpredictable, yet predictable - your wine
Slow, yet fast .. smooth, yet rough 
Soft, yet hard .. crazy, yet sound


You've got a hold on me
Because all I ever want to do is dance with you
Because all I ever want to do is tease you, and you me
Surround me, Engulf me, hold me
Because all I ever want to do is hold you
Because you've got a tight hold .. on me .. on my everything

~ Inspiration - Need I say it 'Hold Yuh - Gyptian' (Mush, Nugget, Ru, B-Roy, u should love this one), i'm totally crazy about this song, even though the radio stations keep killin' it.  So here's a lil double entendre for you. lol, u know how i do. alright, enjoy. Spring Break starts tomorrow so sorry if I dun post anything for like a week.

My playlist for the night has 3 songs : hold yuh- gyptian, Halo - Neyo (not the remix of beyonce's halo, fyi), I am - Mary J. Blige .. weird combo, especially to sleep listening to, but i'm loving it. go listen. :-)

Breaking into a chase (Any move is a good move, as long as its 'moving on')

' I wanna run .. smash into you .... I'm willing to run, and run, and run... smash into you'  Beyonce (Smash into You)

X to Y : 'Do I still think of you when I'm with her? Yes... But I can't wait for something I cannot have? .. and you should not expect me to.'

I'll have you know that 

I cannot keep wasting my time

Wasting my life

Pining for something that I cannot have

So as much as you love to keep me around

For your entertainment

You actually prevent me from living my life

A better life than you are willing to give

Maybe you cannot see what I see

But I realize now how irrelevant that is

I won't waste my life trying to open your eyes

When I feel the heat of her gaze

Gently dancing all over my being

I realize that perhaps I was a fool

For waiting so long to no avail

When there is potential somewhere else

Thankfully, I am not too foolish to realize

That a maybe is always better than a definite NO

So though I think of you ever so often

There is no point wallowing in stupidity

Waiting for that which will never be mine

At least not anytime soon

I do not need the heartache

So today I let go

I walk away with an open heart

I'm ready for something new

X to Z : 'I can run .. I can run very fast .. Well I didn't make it for track .. but I'll have you know that I can run'
Z to X : 'What's the point of this conversation?'
X to Z : 'Well, I can run.. And I want you to know that I'm ready to chase you. Now you need to prepare yourself to be caught'

I'll have you know that ..

I'm ready to get to know you

I'm ready to know your favorite song

And your favorite colors

I'm ready to know your dreams

I'm ready to know your fears

I'm ready to take baby steps with you

And hold hands and spin around in circles

I'm ready to play in the sandbox

And crawl on all fours in the grass

I'm ready to follow you

And I do not mind if you lead

And if you walk too fast

In an attempt to escape

I will walk twice as fast

So I can catch up with you

And when you decide to jog

Because you cannot stand the pressure

I'll jog twice as fast

And jog right next to you

And if you break into a sprint

I'm ready to chase you

To chase you until I catch you

Because I'm ready to make you smile

Yes, I'm ready to make you mine

Y to W : 'He's moved on ... he's moved on. I don't want to alarm you or anything .. but I'm going to just cry now'




~ The photos - Ok, so the first one represents leaves falling in the fall, and the second one represents new life in the spring. I thought this was appropriate, because, well I'm weird, and I always have these crazy far-fetched ideas in my head. lol..Ok, seriously, leaves falling represents something thats falling, dying.. dead..spring brings with it new life, sunshine, and a reason to play frisbee outside. haha. Note that until the old, dead leaves fall down, the new, green, fresh leaves cannot spring up. Need I say more? Noooo, I talk too much. I guess the two major lessons here are : Never bother waiting for something you cannot have, or waiting around for the breadcrumbs. You are totally worth more than breadcrumbs, and you don't need some chick (or guy) flexing you. Chale, keep on stepping. Second lesson is, sometimes you don't miss your water till the well runs dry. Oh there's another one, be proactive and productive :D Its a wrap!

~  Inspired by last week's Private Practice episode.
  
'I was not looking, was content to remain. And its ironic to be back in the game. How could I know that I was lost without you? And I want to tell you, you control my brain, and you should know that you are life in my veins.. .. and its erotic to be back in the game' - Fallen (Lauren Wood)

Chinese Wall (Developing the 'constipated' attitude)

'You learn to sing a song, and then you never have to talk about the issues' - Billy Bulger (MA State Senate, 1978- 1995)

Its quite unfortunate

That your childishness

And insensitivity

Leave me confused

And disensitized

Its quite unfortunate

That you make assumptions

Based on past evidence

When a simple question

Could reveal all the facts

Oh how terribly unfortunate

That you are the one with the mood swings

One would think I did something wrong

So I watch in terrible disbelieve

As a friendship goes down the drain

I'm not going to be the only one

Putting in all the work

And I would hate for my actions to be misconstrued

Because you won't ask relevant questions

And choose to be in the terrible state of..

Awkward

'An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind' - (Gandhi) 

~ I believe in trust, forgiveness, communication, and friendship. I just think its the right thing to do .. its hard and all, but its possible with the right kind of help... but when people starting giving you attitude, random mood-swings ( today i'll talk to you, and laugh with you, tomorrow i'll frown at you or ignore you.. PMS/ Mid-life crisis.. who the heck knows), and acting very random and generally childish, making assumptions when they can simply ask questions or talk to you, it just portrays insensitivity, whether thats the intention or not .. and that just leads to serious swag zero. For, after all is (not said and) done, there will be absolutely nothing left. Finally you get to the 'i don't care about anything that concerns you anymore' state.. and personally, I think that's not ideal.. but alas, (yeah i just love to throw this word about, because i find it amusing), the worse case scenario is appealing because it takes two to tango, and no one wants to do the tango by themselves, nope, you don't want to be the one who is always bringing up the issues, doing all the talking, and trying to fix things. No one wants to be a perpetual babysitter... because it seems like the other person doesn't care enough to help fix anything, or perhaps they do not believe that anything needs fixing. Hmmm, tricky, init?

 ... Oh but wouldn't it be a shame if we all walked in darkness?.. 


Chale, complicated relationships are a breeding ground for misinterpreted actions. Those things are highly toxic. At some point you've either got to decide that things are spinning out of control, and you want it to stop.. or.. leave things to go downhill fast. Usually, you say 'fuck it', not because you are indifferent, but because the other person is either taking you for granted or being repetitively silly. My two cents - Communication is key. 


* Oh, just in case anyone was wondering what I mean by the constipated attitude -- well, constipated = Not giving a shit (literally). Now does anyone need any further explanation? Or do you want me to explain the 'Celibate' approach as well. :D Alright folks, have a good one!

~ Inspired by a conversation I had with a friend. Knowing my philosophy, I told the person in question to just go with the flow, after all, people get over their bullshit eventually. I mean, you need to know who you're dealing with, acknowledge (even if its much to your chagrin), that sometimes you just have to be the babysitter, and eventually things should be back to normal. lol..but if in a few weeks, homie is still acting crazy, I know she won't heed my advice. Not that I would be surprised, cos I probably wouldn't either.
Its a wrap folks... ENJOY!!! ...
                                                   I bet the neighbours know my name :D

He's Just Not That Into You

Heyya everyone!! I found this interesting article that I thought I would share with you, cos I got a good laugh. The writer is amusing.

 ARTICLE : He's just not that into you ( no really, he isn't )

Ok, so now, I'll call my write-up ....  Handicap Parking ....  Enjoy

They say that when your left arm is bugging ..

The right thing to do is to cut it off !

But what if I am used to having two arms

Irrespective of whether the left arm is useful or not

Irrespective of whether the left arm is rotting or not

What if I'd rather not walk around being crippled

Oh snap!! Wait a minute ...

I could totally use that Handicap Parking spot!!

On the real though, when a man is not treating you right, you need to grow some balls (ya, ya, the irony), and be a man (ya, ya, the irony), and kick his irrelevant ass to the curb. One of my friends told me a long long time ago that 'no one is irreplaceable' (well, he was talking about his ex-girlfriend). A year later, Beyonce said the same thing (Not that I was paying attention to anything but her lovely Dereon hoodie), lol ... so what are you waiting for?  Get that parking spot!!! .. trust me, the 'left arm' market is not as cut-throat as single girls make it seem. tehehe!!

Disclaimer -- Ok, I know I'm single and all, but please if you leave your man and you become sad and all, please don't come and blame me o!!! :D haha

.. And So What?

Ama did this

And Akosua said this

Kojo slept with Ama, Akosua and Abena

Jojo was offended because Kojo slept with Abena

And Akosua is depressed because Kojo slept with Ama and Abena

Kwabena wants his ex, Ama back

But Ama has a crush on Kwesi and cannot tell him
Kwesi is going around telling everyone that Akosua gave him head
Which, bdw, fyi, is false
Kwesi is just jealous because he thinks Papa gave Akosua head in the elevator
And is offended because he never got the chance ..
.. To make hot passionate love to Akosua, last summer when they were stuck in the elevator

And as for Kojo, he just needs to grow some balls

And tell Awura that he cheated on her with Ama, Abena, and Akosua

And while we are on the subject of balls

Maybe Kojo should learn to keep his balls to himself

Abena is keeping her fingers crossed

Hoping that Kwesi realizes that he belongs with her

Maybe if Abena kept her legs crossed instead, he would notice

Kwesi has a crush on Fiifi

But he definitely cannot tell anyone about that

And Oforiwaa calls Owusuaa to give her the inside scoop

Owusuaa is thinking ...

'Now all this Gossip Girl ish is interesting and all...'

'... A tad on the disturbing side'

'And quite a lot to swallow..'

'How much more to stomach? ...'

And all she really wants to say is..

'And So What?..'

'I do not care!!..'

'I'm busy trying to figure out how to abort Ohene's baby..'

'Without the whole world knowing about it!!!!!'

~ Oh such webs we weave! Me, I like fila!! In this day and age when everybody and their Mama have just become so shady, fila is a powerful tool..LMAO.. But people need to realize that, some things are not meant to be said.. well, atleast not to a whole lot of people, cos news spreads like wild fire, and half the time its really random, and unnecessary. I tend to lose track when stories get too complicated..lol..keep it simple folks, keep it simple... and if its an 'And So What?'.. then please keep it to yourself. lol .. infact naa, tell me so that i can say 'Oh wow', but after that I forget about it, cos chale there are more important things to think and talk about than someone else's life.

Maybe I should just add this Disclaimer, since some people do not realize that I over-exagerrate these posts for effect. I AM NOT OWUSUAA, AND I DO NOT HAVE SOME RANDOM OHENE'S BABY!! LMAO!! This is pure fiction.. well, actually it happens, but no, I'm not part of this one.