Showing posts with label distance. Show all posts
Showing posts with label distance. Show all posts

3/4/10

Chinese Wall (Developing the 'constipated' attitude)

'You learn to sing a song, and then you never have to talk about the issues' - Billy Bulger (MA State Senate, 1978- 1995)

Its quite unfortunate
That your childishness
And insensitivity
Leave me confused
And disensitized

Its quite unfortunate
That you make assumptions
Based on past evidence
When a simple question
Could reveal all the facts

Oh how terribly unfortunate
That you are the one with the mood swings
One would think I did something wrong
So I watch in terrible disbelieve
As a friendship goes down the drain

I'm not going to be the only one
Putting in all the work
And I would hate for my actions to be misconstrued
Because you won't ask relevant questions
And choose to be in the terrible state of..

Awkward


'An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind' - (Gandhi) 

~ I believe in trust, forgiveness, communication, and friendship. I just think its the right thing to do .. its hard and all, but its possible with the right kind of help... but when people starting giving you attitude, random mood-swings ( today i'll talk to you, and laugh with you, tomorrow i'll frown at you or ignore you.. PMS/ Mid-life crisis.. who the heck knows), and acting very random and generally childish, making assumptions when they can simply ask questions or talk to you, it just portrays insensitivity, whether thats the intention or not .. and that just leads to serious swag zero. For, after all is (not said and) done, there will be absolutely nothing left. Finally you get to the 'i don't care about anything that concerns you anymore' state.. and personally, I think that's not ideal.. but alas, (yeah i just love to throw this word about, because i find it amusing), the worse case scenario is appealing because it takes two to tango, and no one wants to do the tango by themselves, nope, you don't want to be the one who is always bringing up the issues, doing all the talking, and trying to fix things. No one wants to be a perpetual babysitter... because it seems like the other person doesn't care enough to help fix anything, or perhaps they do not believe that anything needs fixing. Hmmm, tricky, init?

 ... Oh but wouldn't it be a shame if we all walked in darkness?.. 


Chale, complicated relationships are a breeding ground for misinterpreted actions. Those things are highly toxic. At some point you've either got to decide that things are spinning out of control, and you want it to stop.. or.. leave things to go downhill fast. Usually, you say 'fuck it', not because you are indifferent, but because the other person is either taking you for granted or being repetitively silly. My two cents - Communication is key. 


* Oh, just in case anyone was wondering what I mean by the constipated attitude -- well, constipated = Not giving a shit (literally). Now does anyone need any further explanation? Or do you want me to explain the 'Celibate' approach as well. :D Alright folks, have a good one!

~ Inspired by a conversation I had with a friend. Knowing my philosophy, I told the person in question to just go with the flow, after all, people get over their bullshit eventually. I mean, you need to know who you're dealing with, acknowledge (even if its much to your chagrin), that sometimes you just have to be the babysitter, and eventually things should be back to normal. lol..but if in a few weeks, homie is still acting crazy, I know she won't heed my advice. Not that I would be surprised, cos I probably wouldn't either.
Its a wrap folks... ENJOY!!! ...
                                                   I bet the neighbours know my name :D

1/8/10

The Wait



TICK
TOCK
The clock ticks.. seconds to minutes
minutes to hours.. hours to days
days turn to months.. months.. months
I watch the sands of time slip through my fingers
Wishing you were back here with me
Just so I could see you smile.. laugh.. sing.. dance
In due time.. I keep telling myself
You'll be back where you belong, in my arms
So patiently I wait

I'll be waiting 
Cos I can't smile until I see your smile
I'll be waiting
There's nothing else that I would rather do
I'll be waiting
Cos I can't sleep until I hear your heart
I'll be waiting
Patiently I'll wait right here for you


TICK
TOCK
I resent the distance, I resent the time
Yet as I watch the minutes slip through my fingers
I realize I'm a minute closer to your touch
Your breath.. Your warmth.. Your heart..
For what we share transcends both time and space
Like time, this thing we share is irreversible
And you, my dear, are irreplaceable
So I wait, for in due time
You'll be back in my arms


I don't care how long it takes
I don't mind, I'm alright, I'll sit and wait
Till the sun goes down 
And comes back up again
You're the best thing in my life
Without you it just ain't right
So take as long as you like
I'm Waiting


TICK
TOCK


Waiting ... Waiting ... Waiting ... Waiting
Patiently I'll wait right here for you


TICK
TOCK


Cos I can't smile until I see your smile
Cos I can't sleep until I hear your heart


TICK
TOCK


So patiently I'll wait right here for you
Waiting ... Waiting ... Waiting ... Waiting


Gloomy future without you
There is only one you
So ever so patiently
I wait



~ For Amariee ... hope you love it.
~ Also, for all others in long distance relationships, or temporarily away from their significant others and special people.
~ Inspired by a lot of things but mainly Beyonce's new song 'Waiting'. I've properly killed that song, even my dog, Whisky can bark that song. hahaha!

11/13/09

Naked



I stand in front of you
Naked
Baring my all
Undisguised
All I ask of you
Is that you take me
As I am
Flaws and all
And go the distance..


I stood in front of you
Naked
You touched and explored
You rammed and buried
I had you screaming
I love you
In strange languages
I had you screaming
Obscenities
I had you
On your knees
I had you
I believed


I stand in front of you
Naked
Baring my soul
Asking you
To be mine
You frown
You scream at me
Obscenities
Different circumstances
'B*t*h, You must be outta your mind'
'You must have flipped ur weave'
My weave


My weave
That same weave
You would not let go off
When you buried your soul in me?
Out of my mind?
My mind
My creative imaginative mind
My dirty dirty dirty mind
I wasnt quite out of it then, was I?
My cup, you drank from
Now, your cup of tea, I am not?


Naked I was
I gave my all
We shared dreams
We shared laughs
Naked I still am
Baring myself
Baring my soul
Baring my tears
Asking you
To take a chance
To go the distance..




      ~ Inspiration - Unfortunately, the people who inspired me will never read this. Two of them are not even my friends. One of them, I am a little worried about.. I mean, its not like I lose sleep over her predicament or anything, but like its just sad. Chale, when emotions come into play, everything becomes a hot mess. sigh. And is it just me, or are guys more confused than girls? Maybe just the ones I know or have heard of.

       ~ 'So glide away on soapy heels, and promise not to promise anymore'

10/20/09

I love youuu...I honestly love youuu

I LOVE YOU
I MAY NOT SAY IT ENOUGH
BUT I HONESTLY LOVE YOU


I MISS YOU
I MAY NOT SAY IT ENOUGH
BUT I HONESTLY MISS YOU


YOU BRING ME GREAT JOY
AND I'M SO GLAD YOU ARE MY FRIEND
YOU STRETCH FORTH YOUR HAND
AND YOU TOUCH MY INNER BEING


THANK YOU FOR BEING THAT SPECIAL FRIEND
I LOVE YOU AND I ALWAYS WILL
JUST THOUGHT I'D SCREAM THAT OUT
HENCE THE CAPS..LOL


NOW SMILE MAKE I SEE YOUR DIMPLE!!





~ For Martina, my tuna... distance ain't a thing, for reals :-)... oh, and i got faith like Biggie, so all shall be well..no biggie (lmao!! i shd be a rapper init? find a 'gangster' name for me..haha). I know u think i'm ur craziest friend, but YOU my dear chocolate cupcake, are my craziest friend.


love always,
Shels