Feel Better

If I kiss you where it's sore
If I kiss you where it's sore
Will you feel better, better, better 

Will you feel anything at all
Will you feel better, better, better
Will you feel anything at all

If I tell you I want to make you smile
If I tell you I want to sooth ur pain

If I tell you I want to calm your fears
Would you let me close enough to do so
Would you let me kiss you where it hurts

And where do I kiss? Where does it hurt?

Your hands, Your neck, Your lips or Your tears

Born like sisters to this world
In a town where blood ties are only blood
If you never say your name out loud to anyone
They can never ever call you by it

If i had that penny worth more than precious stones

The one that could pay for your thoughts

Would you tell me what you were thinking
Would you let me into that private space
If I told you I would understand
Would you pretend that you cannot hear?
Would you pretend that I am not here?

You're getting sadder, getting sadder

Getting sadder, getting sadder
And I don't understand

And I don't understand 

No matter the degrees of separation
I can still feel your pain
I see the tears you try so hard to hide
The silence echos louder than you think
You hide in your own world, lose yourself in deep thought
Because you were placed in a scary, selfish, arrogant world
Now you feel invisible, ordinary .. nothing .. dead

But if I kiss you where it's sore
If I kiss you where it's sore
Will you feel better, better, better
Will you feel anything at all
Will you feel better, better, better
Will you feel anything at all


Will you show me where it hurts?
And will I just be kissing the surface?
Will I have to get inside of you?
Will I have to kiss your thoughts?
Will I have to kiss your dreams?
Will I have to kiss your heart?
Do I have the permanent fix?

Anything at all
Will you feel anything at all
Anything at all
Will you feel anything at all
Anything at all... 

If it hurts all over, then I'm all over you
If it hurts in those dark, uncharted parts of you
Those not-particularly-scenic parts of you
Those almost-totally-unheard-of parts of you
The parts I'm eager to know .. and explore
The trail that runs deep into your thoughts, your soul
In that little corner of your heart, I want to plant a kiss


But if I kiss you where it's sore ..


Let me
Let's see

Get Well Soon

Feel Better

#1 Inspiration: 'Better' by Regina Spektor. I love her. (The words in black are her lyrics, the rest are mine)

#2 Inspiration: Conversations I've had over the past few days, things I see around me, stories.. and mostly my imagination.

For You :) Hope you like it. Begin To Hope.

Smile

I come to you with a heavy heart
I come with all my burdens
Burdens of past hurts
A pot full of disappointments
A tray with an array of lost battles
I try, I fail
I give, I do not receive
I ask, I get nothing
Fragile little me
Now a bottle of broken pieces
All I ask is for you to fix me
 
She said ....
Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through for you

Smile?
My face hits the ground
My teeth bites the dust
A smile would be deception
A smile is near impossible
Stormy weather, grey skies
Earthquakes and Hurricanes
Fear and Confusion
Now my only cup of tea
The next step, a strategy
I have no clue
The meaning of life, I seek


She said ....
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

Smile?
When my tears are my only companion
My solitude, my only solace
Humph! Some solace!
Perhaps, a new refuge I must seek
To trudge on, I must
For any day soon all shall be well
All shall be well?
Oh, reason to smile
I try, I give, I ask .. I trust
Any day soon
What will be, will be
For now, I smile 

You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile 

Sending some sunshine your way. :-) If you're feeling down and blue, remember that there are better days ahead .... this too shall pass, Amen. Just keep on keeping on and smile, even when your life feels like shit. Smile, because no situation is permanent. Smile, because its good for your face :-) Smile because I said so. hehehe. Oh, and smile so that your enemies will be shy (my aunt told me that one). So, ya, I'm sending a smile your way. kisses, peace & love. keep praying.
~ Inspired by smile - Nat King Cole

Was supposed to post this earlier on in the year, din get round to doing it.

Tears in Heaven

Would you know my name

If I saw you in heaven

Will it be the same

If I saw you in heaven

I must be strong, and carry on

Cos I know, I don't belong

Here in heaven

Heaven

In your heaven

You've got me trapped

You, my master

Me, your slave

Infinite stupidity

The story of my life

I think about what we have

A pile of nothingness

I ask you, omnipotent one

I ask, who am I?

I ask, who are you?

I ask, what are we?

The silence speaks volumes

For I mean nothing

.. am nothing.. to you

Yet you trap me

In your heaven

Would you hold my hand

If I saw you in heaven

Would you help me stand

If I saw you in heaven

I'll find my way, through night and day

Cos I know, I just can't stay

Here in Heaven

Promises

All empty

Empty barrel

Why do you remain silent?

When I ask, Omniscient one

Where are we heading?

Or why do you do the things you do?

I guess you feel no need for noise

Empty! Empty! Empty Barrel!

Yet you've got me trapped

In what I thought was heaven

Trapped in your web

An intricately woven web of bullshit

And though it stinks as hell

I'm trapped here in your heaven

Clearly a dilemma

For being trapped means suffocating

Being trapped means death

See, I just can't stay

I don't belong

Time can bring you down

Time can bend your knee

Time can break your heart

Have you begging please

Begging ... please ... 

For you I've shed many a tear

I've begged and I've pleaded

My knees are weak

My heart is bleeding

So out the door I go

I'll miss the laughter

I'll miss your touch

I'll miss the good stuff

But you have a wicked heart

In your heaven, I am nothing

For every smile, for every laugh

I cried ten times more

For every caress, for every kiss

You pushed me and crushed me

ten times more, ten times harder

So I cannot shed another tear

Not for you, or anybody

For I know

I don't belong

In this heaven

Beyond the door

There's peace I'm sure

And I know, there'll be no more

Tears in heaven

Yet its hard not to cry

When I'm not sure what exactly is outside

But it must be better than this hellish heaven

Outside heaven, there is light

Outside heaven, there is hope

The irony of it all

So I walk towards the door

Not looking back

Still teary eyed

Sad, yet hopeful

Angry as hell

Out of your heaven

Hope it gives you hell!

Cos I know, I don't belong

Here in heaven

And I know , there'll be no more

Tears in heaven

~ Inspired by Eric Clapton. Not quite sure this is what he had in mind though.

Make Over ... (No longer Dys-Functional)

Okay, so I'm gonna be honest. I didn't feel like writing another story on Akorfa and her depressingly dysfunctional relationship. Plus, I have a lot of work to do this week, so can't really do a full blown story. So decided to 'cut a long story short' (sorry lovers). Basically, here's an abridged version. Dzifa listened to her father's advice, and cut of all ties with Kwesi. In fact, she didn't talk to him for like 8 months (boy, do I love the number 8, eh!).. Yeah, and she focused on herself, and her spiritual, emotional, and career development. She also spent more time with loved ones, and realized there were a lot of things she was passionate about that she didn't even bother exploring simply because she was utilising all her mental faculty (and with no pay) on some guy who shouldn't matter to her. Yeah, so as I was saying, the next time she met Kwesi, she realized that even though she still had some feelings for him, he was certainly not the man for her.... and eventually after a year and a half, she could say without even the slightest doubt that she was over him. Also, she found another guy. This guy treated her so well, that sometimes she found herself wondering when someone was going to pinch her out of her sweet dream. Assume that this is a poem she wrote. I guess its a poem for Kwesi, one about her experiences, and one that he will never read. 

Once upon a time

I was a naive little girl

I trusted so completely

Despite my initial hesitancy

I loved so deeply

Despite my initial skeptism

Once upon a time

You infected me

With your confusion

You infected me

With your insecurities

You made our love a battlefield

Once upon a time

You hurt me

And I was scarred for life

I looked in the mirror

And I could not recognize myself

Indeed, you had changed me

Once upon a time

I decided to let go

I decided to quit you

I decided to not wallow in misery

I decided to not try to comprehend

I decided to find the best in me

Now here I stand

Head held up high

My face is graced with a smile

Yes, I'm not who I was before

I'm better, wiser, stronger

I found myself again

Now here I stand

Ready to give my all again

No 'once bitten twice shy's

No half commitments

No references to the past

Because this time its different

I did not 'fall' in love

It didn't hit me on the head

Leaving me with a concussion

This love was a gradual process

I saw it and I liked it

I felt it, I interacted with it

I chose it, I loved it

Neyo - Over  (Amazing song! Perfectly describes Akorfa's happy place)

~ Sometimes we get hurt so badly that we become very skeptical and pessimistic. This is for the pessimists. Remember sometimes we hurt in order to grow, and sometimes we only see clearly after our eyes have been washed with tears.

I guess all I'm saying is don't give up completely. I'm not saying don't recognize an ass for what it is - an ass. All I'm saying is recognize that there are birds, butterflies, lions and elephants too. Its just that the asses come out to play more often. So just keep your head above the water, and one day someone might just surprise you. :-) Also, never let any confused person leave you confused, frustrated, and drained. Think about it, life is short, and we spend 8hrs of the 24 hrs sleeping... another 8hrs or so going to work, or going to school and doing coursework. Now if you spend your last 8hrs thinking about some fool (an even bigger idiot will spend the 16hrs thinking about this person and the 8hrs dreaming about the person. lol) then chale, go for counseling or deliverance or something. For reals.
Ok, its a wrap. Go ye forth and go do some good. hehe!

Dys-Functional (8 years! 8years,man!)

Akorfa sat bundled up by the window. It was pouring outside. She couldn't stop the tears from pouring, no matter how fast she blinked. She felt cold, and the blanket she had wrapped around her shoulders offered no warmth or comfort. How did she get here? In this dark corner. She looked out at the storm outside and let out a piercing, sorrowful scream that surely woke at least one dead person from his eternal sleep. Stormy weather.. Yup, that was her life. 8 years! 8 long years, she had spent with him. Agreed, a quarter of the time, they spent breaking up and making up. And then he just casually strolled in one day with some feigned sadness and said, 'Boo, I have something to tell you. Don't get mad. I think I've found someone else.'

The sky looks pissed

The wind talks back

My bones are shifting in my skin

And you, my love, are gone

'Huh?!' That's all she could say. She just stared at him. Ok, for one thing, 'Boo' and 'I've found someone else' should not even be in the same sentence, but that aside, ...... 'WHAT?!!!' Akorfa blinked. The fool repeated himself. 'Babes, don't be mad. I've found someone else.' 'Ah, are you on expired weed or what? What do you mean you've found someone else? WDH!! Wait.. What?'.. She could not help the tears that came running down her cheeks. 'I see you are not in the mood to talk reasonably right now. I'll give you some time to digest the information.' He declared, and walked slowly out of her house. It cut like a knife. Why and when did he even start looking, and why didn't she get a memo, or a note, a text message, whatever, saying 'Hey boo, I'm looking. You might want to do likewise'. Then maybe she wouldn't be caught off-guard. Akorfa blinked. She was having flashbacks of last night. How was she supposed to function? She stared out at the storm outside and pulled the blanket tighter. Why did it feel like her walls were closing in on her? She let out another pained scream.

My room feels wrong

My bed won't fit

I cannot seem to operate

And you, my love, are gone

Oh she hated him! How she hated him! What an ass!! Seriously, was he for real? Damn! The guy had cheated her! Well, that was her opinion. Oh, but she still loved him. (Humph, now who was the ass?) 8 years! 8 flipping years!! Well 8 years, and he had found someone else. Out of nowhere, there was now a Madam Newly found. She wondered when exactly he achieved that feat. Considering the fact that he didn't act like someone was looking anywhere other than her doorstep. Okay, maybe he had started acting a little weird since that party three weeks ago. Hmmmmm.... She sighed. She had to move on this time. She had to let go. Oh gosh, how would she let go?

I'll never say

That i'll never love

Oh, but I don't say a lot of things

And you, my love, are gone

Akorfa pulled the blanket tighter. That didn't help. She was still shivering. Plus she needed more tissue for her eyes and nose, but she couldn't be bothered to find another pack. She didn't have the strength to do anything. She didn't have the strength to move ... she didn't have the strength to move ... on. She had to pick up the pieces somehow, and start all over. Hmmm.... empty promises! empty promises!! 8 years! 8years, man!!! She didn't know how to be in anything other than 'in a relationship'. Once in awhile, she would find her self in an 'It's complicated', but that was only when they were having their moments - the break-up/ make-up - moments. She was sad, just plain sad. She couldn't even think of any big complicated words to describe her feeling right now, just plain old SAD. The storm was subsiding.  She thought with a glimmer of hope ... What if he comes back?

So glide away on soapy heels

And promise not to promise anymore

And if you come around again

Then I will take, Then I will take

The chain from off the door

*** Ok, lovers, i knew i said i was gonna do 'diamonds on the soles of her shoes'. Will get on that soon. Hope you enjoyed this one. Toodles!

Inspiration:

'The Chain' by Ingrid Michaelson. I love her. She's amazing.

I tried to find the proper song on youtube, but couldn't. I guess she isn't that popular. I found something that sounds like a recording of a live performance though. The Chain  It sounds way better on my itunes though. LOL. I could send it to anyone who really wants it, just email me.

Amazing Grace

She lived a good life

Had a good run

Played her part in society

Gave life to others

Who in turn were a blessing as well

She was an inspiration

Indeed she served her purpose

Then it seemed that life dealt a cruel card

And oh did she fight

She fought a good fight

And won many battles

And as her time grew nearer

And the gates were opened

Beckoning her to a better place

She gracefully obeyed

It would be a shame to think

That she lost the fight

When she really is at a better place

Smiling down at you

Yes, shed those tears

For they serve as an outlet for the pain

But do not wallow in sadness and anguish

For she is smiling down at you

~ About the departed

    For my dear friends. (Though we may not always understand, in God we still trust.) Love U.